Lonely nights

Felix rolled around in his bed again, he had been tossing and turning all night, his blankets were now tangled around him and he found himself gazing at the bed that Hideaki currently occupied.

During the day they always stayed so close to each other but their beds seemed like there were miles away.

He sighed and rolled around again, laying on his back and staring at the ceiling.

He wondered whether or not Hideaki would mind if they shared a bed, the older lycan was shy and self-conscious, chances were that it would make him uncomfortable.

The thought of Hideaki being unnerved by him made Felix whine internally.
He bit his lip and plucked up the courage to just go over there, as quietly as he could, Felix got out of his bed and padded over to Hideaki’s.

He slipped under the covers and laying behind the man, wrapping his arms around his waist and pulling him against his chest, spooning it softly.

Hideaki lay curled into a tight ball as he slept, head cradled in his palm. His breaths flickered between shallow and deep as he drifted in and out of dreams, occasionally twitching, or an eyelash flickering for a moment before slipping back into unconsciousness.

The man stirred as Felix slipped into the bed next to him, slowly unfurling as he woke, head lifting to gaze at him blurrily through the darkness.

"Felix?" he mumbled, but did not move from the man's embrace, only shifting a little to snuggle a little closer into the warmth of his body.

This did not make him uncomfortable, and in a way, he was surprised. He really liked Felix, which was why sometimes his nerves got the better of him, but this felt comfortable. Quite natural. His heart was beating slightly faster in his chest, but it was by no means an uncomfortable feeling.

"Are you alright?"

Felix nestled his face into the other man’s neck.

“’m fine, sorry I woke you, I just…”

He held the man closer, kissing his neck softly. He wanted to be close to Hideaki and he didn’t want to stay away from him during the nights.

“I missed being close to you.”

The man’s presence was addictive, the closer he got to Hideaki the more he wanted and slowly, day by day the older lycan seemed to be warming to his touch and becoming less anxious.

Felix simply hoped that he didn’t over step any boundaries and cause them to ruin the progress they had made so far.

He wrapped himself around the smaller man, his body pressing up against Hideaki’s as he gazed down at him warmly in the darkness.

His hand gently caressed Hideaki’s chest, stroking him with feather light touched through his pajama shirt.
Like every other night, Felix only wore boxer shorts to bed.

"It's fine, I don't...um..."

Hideaki drew a shaky breath as Felix's lips grazed his neck, gulping softly. "...mind..."

He liked this feeling. It felt so safe with Felix curled around him like this. As fingers stroked over his chest, he could feel his heart beginning to race, and an unfamiliar warm feeling sweeping over him.

His tongue darted over his lips nervously.

Rolling over to face Felix, he smiled up at him nervously, arms slipping around the man's waist.

"...you too." he mumbled, face flushing in the darkness.

He was trying hard to take thing slow with Hideake to avoid frightening him but little things just made him want to be closer to the man.

The way his breath caught in his throat, how his pulse raced at the slightest touch, the shade of pink that always seemed to be staining his cheeks and how he stumbled over his words.

These were all endearing qualities that Felix adored.

He smiled as Hideaki turned around to face him, wrapping his arms around him tighter as he leaned down to brush his nose against Hideaki's.

He kissed him, their kisses were always fleeting, he wanted more from him, his hand gripped his cheek softly coaxing him to stay close so he could continue to kiss him deeply.

He could feel his heartbeat pounding in his chest as Felix's nose brushed against his, silver eyes widening for a moment before sliding closed. His lips moved softly against Felix's, a trembling breath muffled by the man's mouth.

One hand moved to rest on the man's chest, tracing circles on the bare skin.

This was different from every other kiss they had shared before, and he didn't know why. The other kisses had been fleeting, but this one... he didn't feel as though he could possibly break it.

"Felix?" he mumbled into the man's lips, not quite wanting to break the contact.

Felix pulled his lips away as Hideaki spoke, immediately feeling guilty for making the man uncomfortable.

"I...sorry about that, I don't know what came over me..."
He muttered softly.

His forehead was pressed against Hideaki's as he spoke, he was slightly embarrassed by his forwardness with the man.

He thought of moving back to his own bed, he should, he found himself oddly lustful, whether that was because he liked Hideaki, because he was so close, being a lycan heightening his labido, or mixture of all of them, he didn't know.

"It's fine." he insisted.

Hideaki bit his lip. He hadn't wanted to make Felix pull away. And he hoped it wouldn't be too late now. He wanted to continue this. Wherever it might go.

Leaning back up, he pressed his lips to Felix's again, a little more confidently this time, hand sliding up the man's chest to cup the back of his neck encouragingly.

It was hard opening up like this, but if it was Felix... he wanted to.

The young lycan's heart started to beat a little faster as Hideaki kissed him, he pushed into the kiss as his hand cupped the man's cheek again as he deepend their kiss.

His tongue swiped fleetingly over his bottom lip as he pulled away from the kiss again.
Felix's eyes were liquid silver, shining lovingly as he gazed at the older man.

His arms tightend around Hideaki, pulling him closer.

He kissed him back shyly, but eagerly, head tilting upwards as he pressed a little closer, a soft sigh uttered into the man's lips. His tongue tentatively moved against Felix's as he slowly became accustomed to the feeling, his hand smoothing over the man's chest and up to trail a fingertip along his collarbone.

"I...er..." he took a deep breath, eyes scrunched closed. "I..."

He wanted to say this before anything happened. Just so that he was sure that Felix...

"I love you."

He purred softly, leaning into the gentle touches on his chest.

Felix looked at Hideaki with wide eyes, his mouth gaping open for a brief moment before a smile spread across his face.

"I love you too."
He replied, shocked that Hideaki had built up the courage to say it to him first.

He felt relieved finally saying it, he had know what he felt ever since thay day in the library but was too scared to say anything.

Hideaki quickly glanced away at Felix's silence, face quickly turning from a little pink to a deep red. Had he opened up just to be shot down again? His heart dropped in his chest, almost in shock from what he, himself, had said.

He blinked as Felix responded, almost too skeptical to believe his ears, though his heart lifted in his chest.

"Really?"

His voice was shaky. He wasn't used to opening up like this, and he definitely wasn't used to anyone even showing the slightest interest in him... let alone love.

Felix smiled and had to hold back a chuckle, trust Hideaki to doubt the merit of his words.

"Yes really, look."
He took the man's hand and opened it out flat, pressing Hideaki's hand against his chest, laying over where his heart of kept.

Under tue man's touch his heart slowly picked up pace, starting out at a relatively normal pace but increasing until it was pounding firmly in his chest, against Hideaki's hand.

The way that he could feel Felix's heartbeat quicken under his skin was strangely intimate, and in return, he could feel his own pulse beginning to race in a quick, identical rhythm, melting seamlessly with Felix's. He took a deep breath, and nudged his nose to the other man's, a soft smile slipping over his face.

"I love you." he murmured again, hand gently caressing the soft skin of the man's chest.

He couldn't get over the elation of this feeling. His heart suddenly felt lighter, his head almost dizzy. It was something he would usually panic about, but now...

It felt perfect.

"And I love you, Hideaki."
He replied, reassuring the man that his feelings were true, he didn't want him to second guessing his love again.

Felix stroked his hand gingerly, his hand smoothed up his arm, cupping the man's softly as he pulled him in for another kiss.

Felix's lips were soft and gentle, lovingly caressing Hideaki's with feathery kisses.

Hideaki leaned into the kiss, head tilting back to meet Felix's lips softly, gazing at him from under his lashes as they kissed, not wanting to close his eyes. He wanted to remember everything about this moment. Sight, sound, touch, scent and taste... he wouldn't let any of his senses be closed to Felix.

He pressed a little closer, lips falling slightly apart as he let out a soft sigh. His free hand brushed fingertips softly over the side of Felix's neck.

It almost felt as though he were touching glass. As though if with any clumsy movement, he could shatter this dream. Felix was so beautiful, so treasured to him, that he almost couldn't believe this was real.

Felix's arms wrapped around Hideaki's waist, pulling him closer, he new the older wolf needed gentle coaxing to get accustomed to things like touch, he needed to show him that it was okay to be close to him.

A gentle purr rumbled in his chest as Hideaki's hands tentatively brushed over his neck.

It was a very lycan response to touch but he could not help it, he liked the feel of Hideaki's hands against his skin.

He smiled into Felix's mouth at the purr, stroking his neck a little less hesitantly, his fingertips brushing gently up the column of the man's neck to smooth over his jaw. His tongue brushed fleetingly over Felix's lower lip, slowly growing in confidence as his kissed him, his sighs becoming a little breathier.

Felix shifted nervously, moving his hips away from Hideaki.

A soft blush danced across his cheeks, as a human he had quite good self control but being a lycan seemed to intensify everything and break down his self restraint.

He cursed inwardly to himself that he had not worn something a little more substantial that just boxer shorts as his body betrayed him and displayed his affections for the man.

He prayed that Hideaki would not noticed as he continued to kiss him softly, his hand sliding up to stroke the man's chest gently.

He drew a deep, shuddering breath as Felix's hand stroked his chest, his breathing slowly becoming short puffs and pants muffled by the man's lips as he kissed him.

As he felt Felix's hips shift away from him, he suddenly felt very aware of his own reaction, and tensed for a moment in the man's arms, hand freezing in it's place on the man's jaw.

"Felix... I...I'm..."

A soft smile graced his lips as he gazed down and noticed that Hideaki had reacted in the same way, he breathed out a soft sigh of relief, at least Hideaki would not think of him as a pervert.

He hushed the older man softly, pressing a gentle kiss to his neck.

"Let me take care of you."
He cooed softly, his warm hand trailing down the man's clothed torso and down to his pelvis.

Tentatively he stroked Hideaki through the fabric of his pajama pants.
He would take this slow, ease him into his touch. The last thing he wanted was the startle him by going too fast.

A breath caught at the back of his throat as Felix's lips brushed his neck, nodding slowly, not trusting himself to speak.

It was strange how he felt about this. He could feel his heart pounding faster in his chest, beating frantically against his ribcage, and he was nervous. But it was a good feeling. He wanted to do this, even though it scared him.

He sucked in a quiet gasp, the muscles in his stomach jolting as the man's hand slipped down his body, hips jerking at the touch. A quiet whimper slipped from between his lips, and he flushed in embarrassment, biting his thumb nervously to stop himself from making another sound.

"Don't be embarrassed, this is natural, see."
He cooed softly, trying to reassure the man as he pressed his hips up against Hideaki.

With his free hand he moved the older man's thumb from his mouth, he had to stop doing that, instead he offered Hideaki is lips as a replacement, kissing him deeply.

Felix's warm hand slowly slipped under Hideaki's waistband, slipping down his body to gently stroke him without the fabric between them.

His tongue darted over his lips as he felt Felix's hips press up against him, his ego slightly boosted from knowing that Felix was like that because of him. Not anybody else. Him.

He kissed Felix back eagerly, his hand stroking across the man's chest and down the side of his arm to slip over his stomach, hesitating for a moment as he stroked the skin above the waistband of his boxers.

This wasn't the first time he had done this, but it had been so long since he had, that it felt like it somehow. He couldn't remember what it was like, nor who the guy was. And he was worried that he wouldn't be good, and that would put Felix off.

He let out a shuddering gasp as fingertips met his bare skin, jerking up into the hand, a quiet whimper muffled into the man's lips.

Felix's lips quirked up into a gentle smile as Hideaki jerked into his hand.

His whimpers were endearing, he loved each little sound that the man made.

His hand curled around the older lycan's member, slowly stroking him as Felix's lips trailed down Hideaki's jawline.